i cannot obey

obedience to God is not possible.
obedience to God is impossible.
i'm getting it...
i can't do it.

that's why Jesus has to come in, take over.
only Jesus can help me, rescue me out of this pit of disobedience i dig everyday with my thoughts and imagination and desires.
the biggest shovel is my heart.

God, i want to do the impossible.
i want to obey.
so Jesus, take over.
i know you live in me, but i ask you and plead that you take over.

i cannot obey even if my life depended on it.
but Jesus, you can.
and Jesus, you are the only life in me that truly matters and truly lives.
please, live freely in me; my flesh will follow. bless me with obedience, so i can move freely with You.

when i don't can't obey, i feel suffocated, tied down, trapped.
but when i obey, i feel free.

this is the mystery of your love.
i love it when i'm captured by your presence.